Hi Prince
That’s a lot of really complex questions - and I’m not sure I can do them justice, certainly not all in one go and on an internet forum It might be better for you if you break up all your issues into bite-size chunks and start a separate thread on each, dealing with one at a time. Maybe:
However, I will attempt a really short shot-gun response to your points as best as I can:
why does God feel (and seem) so distant? - I don’t know. It is specific to you. How is your prayer/worship/moral/church/bible life? hashtag:feelings
If God loves us, why all the games? - I don’t believe there are any games.
Why the myriad religions, - a mix of human choices, accidents of history and satanic influence
why the plausibility of evolution, - because evolution is probably true
why so much pain? - sin, human and satanic choices
What are we learning now? - many things, but each will have to be considered on a case-by-case basis and depends upon human choice
If ultimately God has to give grace - if we cant do it by ourselves, why waiting so long to pull up the curtain? Involves both God and human choice
why does God hold out? Why not Parousia? (Why am i so impatient? hehe) I think human choice affects the timing, I think God knows the best time
Aren’t doubts of this sort worse for the universalist? Not in my experience