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Nobody has reached perfection in this life. If they have they would literally be God. All have sinned. Motives count too. If we are doing good by loving others and not loving God then we are not loving perfectly. I try to worship God first (love with all my soul heart mind) and then my neighbor as my self. I’m not perfect though and I do mess up. But I’m a lot better than I used to be. As a Christian I am a partaker of God’s Beauty. He gives His own Beauty to me giving me His joy and happiness. I am a partaker of this infinite fountain of joy of which He is Himself. These streams of water waves and raindrops of glory are His Divine light and love. I am swept up in His heavenly Beauty as I participate in His Trinitarian circle of love and joy. The love between the three persons of the Trinity isn’t irrational. It does however transcend human logic because it is experienced and not pieced together or something you try to figure out with logic. We can enter into this circle of love through faith because relationships are based on trust. God isn’t something I try to figure out but experience. You can experience paradoxes from different frames of reference. Here’s an example from Proverbs:
On the one hand it says answer NOT a fool according to his folly. Yet in the next sentence it tells us TO answer a fool according to his folly.It depends on the context and frame of reference you are in. Within the circle of the Trinity there are three persons in a love relationship. Within another frame of reference we see this one circle of love. The one love circle is God who is love. The only way this can be so if is there is more than one person within the Trinity in a self-giving love relationship. For this makes God self-sufficient in love and needing nothing. If God lacked He wouldn’t be God. His love is a flowing stream of water waves and raindrops. God wants to seduce us with the beautiful paradoxical mystery of Himself and bring us into union with the paradox of love. I hope that helps. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.